I am who I am and loved anyway. I hope we all feel that way. "Much more realistic and important to change something in ourselves than in our lives."

Monday, May 29, 2006

Finished off some books...

Well this week I finished off 3 books (which only leaves about 20 or so to read). Interestingly, two of the books were on the same topic. The Xodus Files and Here I am Lord...Send Someone Else. Didn't realize they would be both be using the Exodus chapter to make their point - which is get off the couch, use the gifts that God has given you, and become a warrior for God. God has trained you, guided you, and He is with you....both really interesting and thought provoking books but I still feel like I'm one of those trembling Israelites the first time they reached the edge of the Promised Land..."but I'm not good enough... their bigger than me...I don't know what my purpose is..." whine whine whine whine whine...looks like I need to stock up on some more cheese or quit the whining...

The other book was "He Who Wept", a historically fiction about the prophet Jeremiah. Now there is a man who went through a lot of crap to obey God. Makes my pity party pretty pittiful...

Still raining here, got all my flowers planted on Saturday and all this rain should help them but I would so love to see the sun again! Had a bbq at the house for my small group on Sunday, rained. So we got to enjoy our basement. Still a good time though - another reminder of the importance of relationships - when the weather is crappy a good friend can always lift your spirits.

Well time to go pick out my next book to read...

Saturday, May 27, 2006

Finding Joy in the day...

Reading Jeremiah 33 "I will never stop doing good for them. I will put a desire in their hearts to worship me, and they will never leave me. I will find joy doing good for them and will fathfully and wholeheartedly replant them in this land."

I love the "I will find joy doing good for them." Love that line. That God finds joy in doing good for us, that he will never stop doing good for us, he will never leave us... Now that is a joyful thing to consider this day.

Well I'm off to hang out with my sister and neice this afternoon (finding joy in my day) - finally going to the plant shops to buy some bedding plants and whatever else tickles me (more joy) I have fallen in love with a plant called a Cana - in the picture it looks gorgeous - hopefully it will like my crappy soil. Me and the hubby are off for supper tonight to celebrate 17 years together (more joy).

Thursday, May 25, 2006

Only 1/2 way through the week....

and I'm exhausted already!! But it's been a good week. But why oh why oh why is it that some weeks you have nothing going on and the next week everything is happening! Why can't I spread some of these activities out better??? Not that I would change anything about this week, I wouldn't miss anything I've done or going to do this week. But this clumping of activities is hard on this old lady!

Driving home from church last night (after listening to the Sonshine choir from Western) I was priviledged to have 2 hysterically giggly 13 year olds in the back seat. Being tired, they were quite annoying...but it made me wonder when was the last time I got hysterically giggly or laughing that hard with my friends???? I want to laugh so hard that I almost pee my pants!!! I want to feel like a hysterically giggly 13 year old (don't confuse this want with wanting to BE one - ugh the horror of going through that again!) Must sit next to Linda tonight, I love how Linda has such a zest for life and is just out there with her emotions and isn't afraid to act on them...

Tuesday night was Accappela concert - fantastic - loved it!! Even acted like a 13 year old and got their autographs but I refrained from having my picture taken with them. I just love how they end the show - all about God, not about them. With praise and prayer and then they just walk off the stage.

Last night was the Sonshine choir from Western - small but great to see the youth singing about God instead of the stuff I hear on the radio.

Tonight is Arlene's birthday supper. We are trying a new restaurant. Looking forward to hanging out with my friends tonight. Friday night is Sarah's soccer game. I'm SLEEPING IN SATURDAY MORNING!!! Beside it's my anniversary and that's about the only way I'll have time to hang out with the hubby. Sleeping...okay not overly romantic I admit but better than the year we both forgot it was our anniversary.

God is good :-)

Tuesday, May 23, 2006

Rembembering....

Reading 1 Samuel this morning and my cheat note has this statement "Sometimes we are so progress and future - oriented that we fail to take time to recall all that God has already done. Remembering what God has done for you so that may move ahead with gratitude."

Right on! One of the things that I really need to remember always is what Jesus did for us. Dying on the cross for our sins. I think of the burden of taking on all our sins, what that must have felt like. He who had no sin suddenly enduring the burden and weight of all of ours. I think of how sin in my own life drags me down, brings me mental pain and how awful I feel and yet he took on everyone's. How oppressing and painful that must have felt. And then not only that, but He was separated from God - had he ever been separated before? How did he bear it? Not only the physical pain he went through but the emotional and spiritual pain. But what really makes me thankful is that he knew...he knew what was going to happen and yet...he still did it. The scene from the Passion of the Christ where the snake is winding through the Garden and he steps on it "your will not mine" always comes to mind. The words "thank you" feel so inadequate, so small, so little ....

Monday, May 22, 2006

I have a great teenager!!!

I'm thinking that this blog might be a good thing for me. It will be a place to write the things that I'm thankful for to remind me when I'm not feeling so thankful. Like my youngest daughter. There are days she drives me crazy but if I write down the way she made me proud and how great she was today - I can use this post to read on the days I don't feel that way.

Last night Sarah went on a sleepover. Now getting a good night's rest is usually not a priority on a sleepover which usually equals a tired and grouchy child. But my Sarah came home before she was suppose to, not crabby and not tired. I announced that we needed to do some cleaning before company arrived, asked Sarah to do a few things - turned to tell her older sister what needed to be done and half way through telling her it clicks - she don't look so good. Yes, she is sick with a cold and not feeling well. I guess I'll do the cleaning up downstairs instead I say. But what does my Sarah say "That's okay mom I'll do Kristie's chores". And she did!! In fact, she cleaned both bathrooms (toilets, sinks, mirrors, sweeping, cleaning up and rearranging things - and even - and I can't believe it's true, I was going to take a picture but she declined - she put the toilet paper on the TOILET PAPER HOLDER!!! Yes she did, honest! I'm not lying!!!), she then proceeded to clean up downstairs, swept livinging, kitchen, and ... and...cleaned her bedroom up without me asking her to do it!!! Wowzer or what. I've got a great teenager :-)

Thank you Lord for today, thank you Lord for my daughter - help me to remember when I'm not so happy with her - all the ways she is a blessing and a joy to me. That life would be so unbearable dull without her and her smile.


Okay so this is how you post your thoughts...

Okay folks I think I'm getting the hang of it.

Now I really need to take the dog for a walk...so I'll leave you with my favorite scripture of the day

"For I know the plans that I have for you," declares the Lord, "plans for welfare and not for calamity to give you a futre and a hope." Jeremiah 9:11 And those are my prayers for you - whoever happens to be reading this. Have a fantastic day!!

How does this work?

Okay, folks here goes. A number of people have blogs and so this lazy Victoria weekend I thought, what they hay, I'd give it a try. Should be doing my housework to get ready for my sister's family who are coming for lunch but....I'd rather be on the computer....Should be walking the dog too come to think of it. I did say I was going to start to live healthier....wonder how long that will last LOL Oh well. Maybe I can use blog to encourage me along the way.

Already then I'm off to see how to set up this blog - wish me luck!!

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